kids

everyone knows that everything changes once you have children. if u do it  the rite way, u change to. u stop unhealthy habits, such as drinking or smoking and u also are now on a schedule. my life is loosely based on my daughter's. however, the thing that has stayed the same is the bedtime routine. for those of you with children, you know how important it is to keep the same bedtime or a close to bedtime or else you are going to have one cranky kid. well with thanksgiving coming up, this thought is on my mind. i even had a talk with my bf about it. this will be his first thanksgiving being a dad, and it shows. he doesnt get that when it is time to go home, it is time to go home. we are doing seperate thanksgivings at seperate houses due to the fall out about his sister. his mom pretty much hates me anyway though, so nothing much will be different. i am supposed to pick him up on my way home. seems simple enough right? well not to my idiot its not. hes making a huge deal out of it and i really dont know how to deal with it. when my daughter gets cranky, he is the first to suggest putting her to bed, or putting her down for her nap. but hes not the one that has to deal with her on thanksgiving right? so why should it matter to him. i am so sick of his selfishness. ugh. and this is the guy that i thought i wanted to spend the rest of my life with, but it doesnt ever seem like he wants the same thing. and the shitty part is that he wants to help with my daughter, but only when she is in a good mood. if she gets cranky, its all up to me to handle it. which would be ok if she wasnt drivin me nuts all day. i think i mentioned that i have her all day at work...which is really stressful...i just wish that i had someone who was really worth sharing my life with. and who would be more understanding about the fact that when its time to go its time to go. i wish my bf wasnt brainwashed.

mind ur thank yous

is it wrong that i feel that i have to thank my bf whenever i initiate the sex? i dont know its weird but sometimes...a lot...i feel like i have to do that and it bugs me. also, today he told me that he fixed some chicks car at lunch that he works with. does anyone else think that it is ok for him to do that?

who needs sibling issues?

my bf's mother texted me yesterday and told me that her daughter...my bfs (half) sister...is going to be spending the night friday. that took me by surprise. he really does suck and letting me know about plans. well anyway, his sister just got out of rehab a week ago and i guess his mom is already sick of dealing with her. i get the stress of having kids...i just have one, but i mean everyone knows that it is up to no one else, but the mother to raise the child. i am sick of taking care of this troubled teen. she is 16 yrs old and has to be babysat and watched more than my 2yr old. not to mention the huge issue of this girls past. she has stolen pills and money from her mother. not to mention snuck out in the middle of the nite with who knows who and doing who knows what numerous times. who is to keep her from doing those things in my home? with my little girl under my roof? its just not right. so i confront my bf about it. saying that i am not ready to trust her after just a month of rehab...blah blah blah. he gets so mad. saying how im shit talking his family and everything. it is hard to be in a relationship with someone who wont be on my side for anything. well i txt his mom and tell her that friday nite doesnt work out for us. i dont tell her the real reason for any of it. this lady is the kind of person u do not want to deal with. not to mention she is a GOSSIP QUEEN!!! well anyway, she texts me back and says...and i quote...i really feel that u hate when (bfs name) spends time with his family. you two should be proud that (sisters name) looks up to you so much. i just wanted to say "look lady. it is not my job to f-ing sit your f-ed up child ok?" idk. dont get me wrong. i dont hate her and i dont hate it when my bf spends time with his family! i really dont. his sister has spent numerous nights with us...in a cramped apartment. its just hard. idk who is right on this one. help?