kids

everyone knows that everything changes once you have children. if u do it  the rite way, u change to. u stop unhealthy habits, such as drinking or smoking and u also are now on a schedule. my life is loosely based on my daughter's. however, the thing that has stayed the same is the bedtime routine. for those of you with children, you know how important it is to keep the same bedtime or a close to bedtime or else you are going to have one cranky kid. well with thanksgiving coming up, this thought is on my mind. i even had a talk with my bf about it. this will be his first thanksgiving being a dad, and it shows. he doesnt get that when it is time to go home, it is time to go home. we are doing seperate thanksgivings at seperate houses due to the fall out about his sister. his mom pretty much hates me anyway though, so nothing much will be different. i am supposed to pick him up on my way home. seems simple enough right? well not to my idiot its not. hes making a huge deal out of it and i really dont know how to deal with it. when my daughter gets cranky, he is the first to suggest putting her to bed, or putting her down for her nap. but hes not the one that has to deal with her on thanksgiving right? so why should it matter to him. i am so sick of his selfishness. ugh. and this is the guy that i thought i wanted to spend the rest of my life with, but it doesnt ever seem like he wants the same thing. and the shitty part is that he wants to help with my daughter, but only when she is in a good mood. if she gets cranky, its all up to me to handle it. which would be ok if she wasnt drivin me nuts all day. i think i mentioned that i have her all day at work...which is really stressful...i just wish that i had someone who was really worth sharing my life with. and who would be more understanding about the fact that when its time to go its time to go. i wish my bf wasnt brainwashed.